Wait, There Is More

Honestly, there is!

So last Monday i got evicted, no anti social shit just a long term consequence of being under occupied and forced to live like a cunt! I wait for the bailiffs, dont know why, couldnt be arsed to do anything about it, constant fucking struggle, low self esteem, motivation, whatever i couldnt be bothered, sick of it.
Bailiff comes along with a housing rep and a couple of locksmiths, i hand them the keys and go, this was last Monday the 16th Nov. 
knowing i had to be out my nice neighbour was kind enough to let me put a lot of my stuff in her spare bedroom, basically anything i could lift went in there.

Yesterday 23rd Nov i went to hers to get a few things when she came in from a nightshift, by total coincidence there was a removals firm and a manager from my housing association about to go into my flat and take what i had left into storage, i told them to just dispose of it, but the housing rep did say i could go in and get a few things if i wanted to,  there wasn't a lot i could carry, but i did have two lots of tools, a tool box in the spare bedroom with a good variety of tools, and a small container in the hall that had a good 1/4 inch socket set in it, i had had them for years, were too dirty to put in my neighbours and was glad of the opportunity to get them.

Oh hold on a minute, they are not there, they have gone, not only that but it is obvious that someone has had a pretty good root through everything left in there,  the housing rep is a bit sceptical, you can understand that,  you would be wouldn't you, but they were there when i left, they changed the locks only they had the key, so i get back to where im staying and ring the housing to complain\question it and am informed that they would have taken a inventory of everything in my flat, they will look into it and be in touch.

Little later i get a call, yes, they have a picture of my larger tool box in their inventory, but it isnt in my flat, nothing of the small one, either way my tools have disappeared and the only people that had a key were the housing association????????????????

Something fucking stinks.

So what now, go back to the police?
I have no faith in them but i guess it is my only course of action.


Slowly but surely!!!!!!!

Paranoid? Yes! But I Am Not Stupid!

I Am Paranoid 

But I Am Not Stupid!

Paranoia.
Paranoia is a thought process believed to be heavily influenced by anxiety or fear, often to the point of irrationality and delusion.[1] Paranoid thinking typically includes persecutory, or beliefs of conspiracy concerning a perceived threat towards oneself (e.g. "Everyone is out to get me").


Yes this is me, i am paranoid, but not without reason.

Self fulfilling prophecy, the police officers comment regarding my complaints.
An ambulance/paramedics at my door, sent in "error" seriously, that evening after complaining at the police station.
I could go on and on, yes im paranoid, you might say you couldn't make it up, but im not stupid nor crazy and no i didn't make it up.

My paranoia is derived from the shit i have written about and much more that i haven't, i didn't imagine the police officers comment nor the ambulance at my door sent in error by the police the same day nor the episode with my wrist nor my driving license, i didn't imagine burning a hole in my quilt, i have the proof, I have lots, i offered it to the police, they refused it, physical fucking evidence, seriously?

I am on the whole a fairly lucid, coherent and confident person, a good thinker, i can talk to anyone about pretty much anything with few exceptions, some of them being theft trespass harassment and intimidation, not because i don't have the knowledge, but from my own experiences these things don't exist in law!
Well not if your me and you want some kind of justice.

As for my paranoia, yes, i don't trust anybody, i go into every situation with trepidation just expecting shit, its a self defence mechanism, when you have been shit on like i have then it gets to the point where its easier to expect the worst and be prepared to just disregard and ignore rather than let it get to you.
The police officers comment was a perfect example, the ambulance another, lets imagine, that day, i complained about theft from and trespass in my flat and nothing else, i offered the police evidence to back up what i was saying, then add the other things i have complained about.......SELF FULFILLING PROPHECY and an ambulance at my door in error was the reply i got from the police.

It has gotten to me, i don't do anything or go anywhere, this shit is crushing, life/personality changing.

Paranoia, yes, stupid, no!
Shit dosnt just happen, tho i get the distinct impression some people wished the shit hadnt happened, but whats done is done you cant take it back, but a complete refusal to acknowledge is as good as a guilty admission.


I could, but wont, explain why some people would deem it acceptable, someone lied, and some folks never bothered to check, now somebody is scared of the truth. 


That somebody isn't me!